I have been thinking… a lot. Mostly the kind that makes you go into a downward spiral of self-doubt. Yet somehow I manage to pull my sorry ass out each time. It either involves family or friends taking adventuresome risks to convince me. Art is always the greatest therapy. For a period of time, I couldn’t write. I felt unworthy. Inadequate. Far from scholarly and had no base of credibility to stand on. Who would ever listen to me?
Why would anyone listen to me? A friend even told me, “oh you’re not a writer; you’re just an artist.” Listening or reading to everyone in the spiritual and occult community tear each other apart over this, that and the other drained me. I couldn’t take it anymore. So I took a break. I wanted to write but I felt blocked. I had so much to say but felt constipated with grief. My friends were supportive. One urged me to do it anyway and “not let the stuffed shirts” bother me.
So I did what some close friends told me. I submitted something to Hadean Press. I am excited to announce the painting “Typhon” will be gracing the inside cover of Conjure Codex Issue 3! Looking forward to receiving my copy of the issue. Issues I’m told are being shipped out as of March 23rd. I am currently working on an article for the Gold Codex coming out 2018-19. Already submitted related artwork. Fingers crossed!
I also did something slightly a bit out of my element. I event coordinated a drink & draw event at the Lovecraft Bar NYC. If it wasn’t for my friends, it would have been a total disaster. The blizzard threw everyone off and we had to reschedule everything. All in all, it was an amazing night. I am still editing the footage for promo and hope to use it to push a new wonderful artistic community here in NYC. Have so many ideas. Wish I could tell you. You’ll just have to wait!